Okay gang....I am tryin'. Really. A path towards peace and forgiveness and mercy and yadda yadda yadda. But to be honest I don't have much to work with. Lousy has not exactly tried to redeem himself, as a human, a parent, or a...well, anything...

So, I am attempting my one-sided journey to peace. But I can't really get past the fact that I only feel pity. I feel so fortunate to be un-linked to Lousy. Quite simply, I pity the Lousy little fool....

My children are due home at 7 from their weekend visitation with Lousy. I had asked him if he could return them at 5 to attend a birthday party. He refused to give me an answer until the last minute which was no. Then I am here waiting for the children (due home at 7) to get them ready for their bedtime (7.30.) Guess what? Lousy texts me at 7, saying that he was going to keep them another night. I texted him to bring them home per the court order. And then, at 7:17 he texts me "they will resent you over time...only a matter of time"

Nice going Lousy! Just when I thought you couldn't suck anymore....you do!!

Just because you don't understand or have not been through a situation does not mean you can't be a really good friend....LousySpouse survivors need their friends now more than ever....

I have reached out to Lousy to find out updates on what he did with my children for the holiday...who they were with, what their gifts were, what the schedule and routine were like...I get no response. He does not reply to e-mails or voice mail. Our court ordered "parent coordinator" has proven to be costly, inconvenient, and completely ineffective. My kids came home all out of whack...not sleeping, aggressive, kinda wild. It has taken me my whole half of the vacation to get them settled back down. Naps, routine, structure....the "weekend dad" as I understand it just throws all of that to the wind, and does whatever he wants. Coupled with an extreme case of being lousy, and an extended visit, my little ones are off kilter. Lucky me gets to pay the price. Thanks Lousy!!

No lawyer, therapist, family member, or priest can get through to a lousy. They treat you like dirt no matter how nice you are....did I mention that his parting words when he took my children for Christmas break were..."I'm gonna take custody from you....." Yeah, right....he is about as stable as a weeble wobble.

This was my first holiday with the new "holiday visitation schedule" (my divorce from cheating lousy was late last February.) This is how it was structured...the attorneys divided the school vacation in half for alternating years. Well my munchkins are so young that their vacation is very long!! I went 7 nights without my babies! Including Christmas Eve and Christmas!! My Lousy is so lousy that he would not even let me see my children on either of those days, take them to church, give them a gift, a hug or a kiss...he would not even let them call me.

The little ones were due home last night at 5...I had all their Santa gifts set up, their dinner on the table, a fire in the fireplace...guess what?They got home at 8 pm - tired, confused, and out of sorts. He gave no explanation, no updates, no excuse, and certainly no apology.

The little ones came home with no new toys, or gifts or clothes. Just what I had sent them with.